![]() i'd do anything in the world, but it probably just isn't enough, and i end up sacrificing everything for nothing. if i try to say something, i'm not even there. it's as if everytime i do something, it's not done right, or it's just not what i'm supposed to do. i'm sure if you've experienced it before, you'd know how it feels to be put off by someone who's made an impact in your life. the other day i felt insecure about someone special, but apparently it's about trust issues. half the time instead of studying i just sit and stare outside and think of recent events that. why am i blogging 2 days before my exams? coz i don't wanna disturb anyone and i don't think i have anyone else to talk to about the bloody mess in my head. haven't met up with him in ages, since he's had exams and all. the only highlight of the day was breakfast with my brader. stupid, no? ok i got nothing more to say. i say that i wanna do them, but eventually i won't, coz i don't really have the inspiration anymore after time passes. damn, blogging is getting a bit addictive. 1 day left, i think the pressure's starting to come on. why can't it be that way again? oh well, things happen for a reason, who knows what's gonna happen next. too good to be true, maybe? but those were the best nights of my life. been going through some of the old chats in the last hour. but it's another unproductive day and it's actually already the next morning. reminiscing about my childhood days, how my imagination just ran wild, no limits, everything was in a world of its own. I wanna get some super cool laser gun and just shoot. I'd better go study a bit, i don't really wanna be failing my exams at this time of the year, particularly at this stage of education, it'll reflect quite badly. the mysteries will remain, until time decides that the answers should be revealed. so many questions, most of them unanswered. makes me wonder how the world works, really. it's actually getting pretty dark now, for 2.34 pm in the afternoon on a SUNday. it's probably gonna bug me for the rest of today, but i guess i'm used to it.Īw shucks. 'cause I need this now, and you need this tooĬould it be that we met at the wrong time?Īnd then this song reminded me of my promise to give something tomorrow morning to this special person, but not sure if i should. whoever said enjoy life while you can must've been high. me and my problems and issues and shitty life. i kinda wonder if there's anyone out there who actually understands me, who understands what i feel / am going through. that's probably a nice thing coz i can just say tons of shit and just rant it all out, and no one can judge or say anything that can piss me off even more. well, none at all to be honest, coz i've come to the conclusion that this blog is not read by anyone. ![]() i'm not putting much effort in intriguing you guys. This blog has officially became my therapist. the worst part is coming home then thinking about all the shit that's happened again and again, and it just never gets out of your head. it's bad enough i have to study for chem tomorrow, it's worse that i have to sit for it early in the morning, and it's even worse that the exams don't end there yet. but oh wait, life just has to whack you in the balls once more. ![]() annoying, really, especially when i'm trying to study. these stupid shitz just keep coming every night for the past few weeks. unwanted habits/features/characteristics (small things that barely make a difference) in people that you thought there never was/will be. for example, after a while you begin to notice several. but sometimes you just can't help but be pissed off at all the small little things people do, which in fact barely make much of a difference. occasionally you might find it better, once you realise that it's a shit thing that happens for your good later on. most of the times it's you noticing all the small, not-to-be-noticed details which will just. You know how sometimes things happen then you see things in a different perspective. ![]()
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